One of the many things that scares me most is allowing others to see my weakness, my insecurities. So, all my life I have had a tendency to hide the things I struggle with. I fight it internally, by myself. Last week, I shared with a small group of woman my issues with weight. I thought it would be fitting to share with all of you. I am convinced its a battle of the mind. It's believing a lot of lies.
Exercise has always been an outlet for me. I have always exercised for as long as I can remember. I have always struggled with my weight and body image issues. In High School my friends would be eating Taco Bell and McDonald's everyday after school and I would not only not eat lunch {so not healthy} I would then go home and count my Weight Watchers points. I would go to meetings and feel so embarrassed because I was the youngest one there.
The reason I say it's a battle of the mind is because even when I was in good shape I would always worry that I would start to gain weight. Fear. I hate that feeling. I thought the older that I got the feeling of being consumed about my weight would go way. I was wrong. I honestly believe that many woman who are 'in shape' are consumed by it just as much as those who are visibly overweight. So, here I am telling all of you that I am trying to lose my winter covering that I have put on. Is it a major amount? No. However, you know the feeling when you put your clothes on and they are tight. It's terrible. You try on 10 different outfits until you feel good in one of them.
Please tell me you have done this?
For some reason when I am a little lighter I can put on any outfit and feel good.
So, here is what I am doing. I am trying to not eat past 7pm. This has always worked really well for me. My happy place is around 8:00 when my sweet boys are in bed. I have a large Diet Coke in hand, I sit on the couch and watch my reality shows with a bag of chips, cereal... you get my point.
I am telling all of you because when I tell you I tend to keep my word.
It's called accountability and friends, I need it.
I need to remember that I was made to consume food but, food was never made to consume me. I would love to walk with you on your journey. I truly believe that God wants us to encourage one another in our struggles. This for me is for sure one of them. Hebrews 13:3 says that we must "encourage one another daily, as long as it is called today, so that none of us may be hardened by sins deceitfulness."
So, please tell me how I can encourage YOU! As women body image and weight loss is a huge issue. Are you trying to eat healthy? Exercise more? Lose weight?
What are you doing to reach your goal?
